A Bittersweet Goodbye <3

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It’s been awhile.

So this is what it feels like.  To write that final goodbye post. I was talking to one of my best blogging friends, and she gave me the perfect word to describe it.  Bittersweet. 

The Bitter.

I remember so much.  Some certain scents will take me back.  Looking at archives of my blog and watching old agtube videos will bring it all rushing back.  And that’s when I know that it’s time.  I already wrote this post a few weeks ago. It was too sad and dramatic, even for me.

I guess it fell apart in the usual way.  I remember that I was dressing them up, and it didn’t feel the same.  No matter what I put them in, I didn’t like it.  It hit me right then.  I lost my spark.  I tried to light it up again.  But it didn’t work, and I want to apologize before I go on.

I was unloading the dishwasher in my kitchen, the morning sunlight against my face, and I was reminiscing.  My mother brought up the dolls.  “What a creative way to spend your girlhood,”  and I replied, “It was, wasn’t it?”  Because it was so. perfectly.  wonderous.   The day after, I was cleaning out the doll stuff, and I realized I needed to talk to my mom.  I had already told my three absolute amazing blogging friends.  After some tears and a long heart to heart, I realized something.  I felt so guilty because I felt like I was abandoning you all.  All 495 of you.  I was then reminded that I wasn’t the 11 year old girl who could spend hours playing with her dolls.  I’m 13 now, and I’ve grown.  It struck me that if you really cared about me, you would understand that people change and that passions change.

I’m sorry for leaving you, but it’s not fair to myself at this point in time.

You are the reason so much has happened.  I gained three of the best friends I’ve ever had, my writing has improved, I have another blog now, I have people who share my interests and people I feel that I belong with, and now I have a passion for photography and I’m just so grateful for all of it.

The Sweet part?

I would never leave you completely!  I still have my other blog that I get to focus on to make something so amazing!  If you want to keep interacting with me, I’d love for you to go follow and I’ll be sure to work extra hard to keep up with the comments.  ❤  https://redheadwithabook.wordpress.com/

I will always remember the past three years.  When I hear the words “American Girl” my heart will flutter a little.  I will remember what this blog and what the dolls have given me.  I will always cherish them in my heart.

I want to take this blog, remember everything it’s given me in my heart, and then move onto my new passions and work on the things that I really love.  I love dolls forever, but sometimes you have to say goodbye to things you love.  I know it’s the right decision.  Who knows, maybe one day I’ll feel like bringing out my dolls again, and taking a few pictures of them.  But for now, I’m packaging some of them, and all the clothes my grandma made me in pretty tissue paper.  They will be sitting in storage, and I’ll hopefully pass them on to my future daughters one day.

This seems kind of heartless, but it’s simply unrealistic to keep all of the American Girl things that I’ve collected over the years.  So instead of keeping all of my dolls, I made the choice to let some of them go.

I will always keep the memories I had with them with me, no chance that I’ll ever sell those.  ❤

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I am going to be selling a lot of doll things on ebay because there’s no way I can store all of it.  I’d really, really appreciate it if you checked it out or reblogged this or posted about it on your blog or even bid on it if you have enough money XD



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This is my goodbye.  It’s been the most amazing few years I could ever imagine, and I have to say, what an amazing way to spend my girlhood.  ❤  ❤ ❤



66 thoughts on “A Bittersweet Goodbye <3

  1. Good luck in your new life as a great teenager; I wish you a lot of fun with your new activities and your studies.
    Let your blog open, it will always be nice to come back to see it from time to time, as much for us … as for you, maybe.
    Do not be bitter : the wheel of life turns all the time, yesterday was yesterday, tomorrow will be tomorrow, and today it is necessary to prepare it, without forgetting what it was yesterday.
    All the best,
    on the part of a former naturalist photographer, now a 62-year-old adult doll collector … (as you can see, there is no age to love sewing for, and to photograph AGs 🙂

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  2. You did an amazing job writing this post. You’ll always be my favorite blogger, no matter what you post! It’s hard to say good bye to dolls, but the best things don’t last forever. ❤️❤️❤️

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  3. Oh Sam, I’m literally on the verge of tears as I write this comment. I don’t want to say goodbye to you, but I support your decision 100%. I’m going to miss you soooooooo much, your comments on my blog have encouraged me more than you could ever imagine. You were one of the first bloggers I came across when I entered this amazing AG blogging community, you were such an inspiration to me and your posts were the highlight of my day. It’s not going to be the same without you. I wish I could buy your dolls your selling, especially Paisley (I had been looking for #21 for awhile), but sadly I’m poor and only have $45 XD do you think we could be pen pals or something? I’d totally understand if not, thank you for letting us be apart of your childhood and blessing us with your AMAZING stories ❤ I'll miss you. See you around Redhead with a Book 🙂
    -Katie 🙂

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  4. Hi Sam! I completely understand how you feel. I never had a doll blog, but I did play with AG dolls when I was 10-11 years old and I too lost my passion for them. While I’ll miss looking at your gorgeous doll photos, I also love reading all the amazing things you write and do. Love you!

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  5. I’m literally crying as I write this right now. 😢 We’ll all miss you so much! You took great pictures of your dolls and always kept us entertained with your amazing posts on AGDA. Your posts always made my day and were so fun to read. I’ll miss you and AGDA. ❤️❤️❤️

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  6. great job writing this, sam! i know it was really hard, but i’m proud of you for being able to do it. of course i’ll miss this blog, but i’d rather have you be a happy teenager. love you 💕

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  7. Awww, Sam this is beautiful! All of us will miss you so much! However, I completely respect your decision and I agree, AG was a wonderful way to spend your girlhood.:) You are an amazing blogger, and I’m glad you’re not leaving the blogosphere entirely, with your other(super cool)blog. Needless to say, I’m checking out your EBay right now! Good luck with whatever life brings, and let me just say, this was the best goodbye post I’ve ever seen:)

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  8. I will miss this blog so much, but I understand and support your decision. You need to go on in life, I totally understand. It is hard growing up, especially the growing out of your favorite toys. I do not think that you’ll ever grow completely out of Ag, but like I said it is time to move on. It would be wonderful if you could pass your dolls on to your daughters, they would love them because they were yours. I know what a hard decision this is, but for you it seems right. You can’t stay young forever. I don’t like Ag as much as I used to, but I am not ready to be done, I think, though, I won’t love dolls forever.
    I didn’t know you very well, but I hope to offer some comfort. Maybe I can get to know you through your other blog. You can still like dolls. You don’t have to be completely done. Maybe you can still enjoy dolls through other peoples blog.
    Be yourself, be true, be kind. You did an amazing farewell.
    Thank you,

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  9. Awe, Sam! This is absolute PERFECTION. I’m gonna miss your gorgeous doll photos – but I’m so glad you’ll still have your personal blog! Thank you for all the happiness your posts brought me – I will forever cherish them. ❤️

    -Bekah ❤️

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  10. I’ll miss you Sam, you were the first doll blogger I ever checked out! And you gave me my first follow. ❤ Thank you for sharing your passion with us over the three amazing years. ❤ 🙂

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  11. A little bit of me just died. 😦 I really wish you could keep doing your thing, but to each her own. I’m glad you’re keeping at least most of the AGDA family. (Too bad I don’t have $350 or I’d buy what you’re giving up XD) Your blog will always be special to me because of all the memories I have of looking at it. So sad to see you go 😦
    Stay cool, keep playing. You’ll have plenty of other years to be grown up.

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    1. I’m so so sorry. You were the one person I was keeping in mind while I wrote this, because you were such a huge supporter of me throughout my blogging journey and I love you so much for that. Everytime I see that you liked my post I will remember everything my blog was, and how much fun I had talking to you. ❤

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  12. Samantha, what a gracious goodbye. As always, I’m so proud of you. I’m moved by the lovely, supportive comments from your followers. You have been a part of a truly wonderful community, and you will be missed so very much! Love, Xoxoxoxo grandma

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  13. I…don’t know what exactly to say. I’m really, really, REALLY going to miss your posts on AGDA. I’m going to miss your creative flair in your photo stories and photo series. I’m going to miss laughing at your tidbits of sarcasm. (I’m temped to put a sad face, but it’s probably bitter enough already for you)

    I feel like I might be slipping away from AG sometimes too…but I think it was just a funk. I wish it could be the same with you, but… Still, I totally understand. You should do what you want to do because it’s your blog after all.

    I’ll definitely check out your other blog. ❤
    P.s. The first post I saw on your blog was the fake good-bye post…..

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      1. Oh no, don’t feel horrible! Seriously! My main memory of your blog was the amazing photo-stories.<3 I just thought it was ironic.

        ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

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  14. Bye Sam! You were the first blog I followed on WordPress. 🙂 I followed Redhead With A Book. I could really use that lot, as I love Grace, my sister loves #21, and all the clothes would be great. But I only have $46, soo…. 🙂

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  15. Sam, let me start by saying this was beautiful. This is one of the best written posts I have ever read. This blog was one of my inspirations when I began blogging, so thank you for that. I really am going to miss this blog. But at the same time, I support your decision and I’m so excited to see what you post next on Redhead With a Book! I hope that your sale goes well. Goodbye, AGDollAwesome.

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    1. I’m sorry for leaving you like this. I really want to keep up with you on my other blog because you’re one of my favorite people.. like ever. I hope you’re not too bitter, but I completely understand if you are. I remember you were so enthusiastic in all of your comments and how you joined my contests it was just the sweetest. I luv you. ❤


  16. Aw Samantha! I will miss your posts on here ever so much, but I understand moving on. I moved on a while ago, I realized and now I’m not sure what to do with my dolls😔I might sell some stuff, but I could never sell the dolls. I will keep in touch at Redhead With a Book! I know you’re doing what’s best for you and I will have to reread the archives every so often!

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  17. This is beautifully said. And as a reader and follower this is bittersweet for us too. I am thrilled to be one of the followers who has enjoyed reading your work. Yes, our focus changes as we grow. Sometimes we circle back around. I appreciate all the time and effort you put into each and every post and thank you for sharing your talents with us. I wish you the best in all your future endeavors.

    I’ll share your ebay link on our blog and facebook page. I kind of wish you had split it into smaller lots. More fans could have popped in for a momento.

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  18. Samantha, there is absolutely NO reason to apologize! Of course it’s sad to see you go, but everyone moves on at some point! I wouldn’t expect you to play with American Girl dolls forever and I’m sure most other people wouldn’t either! I totally understand! You did the right thing! You wouldn’t want to do something just to make your followers happy, you should be happy too and there is no reason to continue if this isn’t something you enjoy anymore! You are such an amazing blogging friend and i’m looking forward to your future posts on Redheadwithabook! 🙂

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  19. I literally started to cry when I saw the title of this post. 😥 I’m really going to miss your amazing photostories. I have always loved your blog and while I’m sad that you’re leaving, I understand how you feel. When that spark is gone it’s just not fair to make yourself post. You have been such an inspiration and an encouragement to me personally. I’m also really going to miss see what Molly is doing, she is and will always be my favorite of your dolls. 🙂 Thank you so much for all these years of fun!
    ~ The Human


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  20. sam, i love you and this blog so much. ag doll awesome is always going to be one of the best doll blogs to ever exist. i really mean that. i’ve loved watching your site grow and your posts improve over the past few years. your impact on this community will never be forgotten.

    it’s so hard to say goodbye to something that’s been a part of your life for so long, so i think you’re very brave for being able to post this. i’ll miss your site but i’m glad you’ll still blogging. love you forever. ❤

    xo loren

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  21. I hate to see you go, but I understand. it was a fun adventure having you apart of the community. Follow your passions and dreams!
    Much love,


  22. I just want to say that I’ll miss you SO so much, but I understand. Sometimes it just doesn’t feel right anymore.
    You’re loved. By us and Jesus. Never forget that. ❤

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